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I Haven't Gone to the Beach 'Cause I Don't Really Get It

by Cody Smith

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Cameron Schettler Don't have to wait till your dead to find some depth in what you've said, that's for damn sure Favorite track: angel static.
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1.
They'll watch you learn and they'll watch you burn. This old knife don't hurt too much anymore. I'm wasting time so I take my food to go. I close my eyes and I light a smoke. I do my best to hold my breath. Do you think I should visit the hospital? I might make a friend who dies with hope. The lights are bright but the air is cold. I kill the things that I love the most. I'd like to watch myself become a ghost. I'd float around and makes some sounds alone. In a quiet town that feels like home. Home. I miss everyone, all of the time. I'll stay awake for you. Might be laying on the floor. I'll be here all night. You tell me that your heart feels sore. There's nothing about me that you adore. So I take a bow and walk out the fucking door. Like my father's done so well before. Close your eyes, the sun is shy. Count how many times you've wanted to die. You might get rejected by the sky. But don't be sad 'cause so was I. I've lost belief in anything. That's okay I just get really bored. It's something I find so hard to ignore. But the only thing I know for sure. Even though my blood still flows. I'd like to watch myself become a ghost I'd float around and make some sounds alone. In a quiet town that feels like home. Home. I miss everyone, all of the time. I'll stay away from you, Might be laying on the floor. I'll be here all night.
2.
playground 02:17
I was writing you a story, and it had a happy ending. It's a secret, will you keep it? I hope you don't think it's boring, I hope I am not annoying. I know how to walk away. Not today, this isn't really happening.
3.
In my weird dreams, you come to me. Now I can see, your love is free. In the sea I can breathe. In the sun I become. We are flowers, twilight hours. Tonight we die, we find white light.
4.
apple core 03:37
baby eats the apple core, she says it helps her sleep. she says it helps the apples grow inside of her tummy. everyday she wakes up on the right side of the bed. she says the morning sun protects her from all the bad. and all the while she smiles and recites the alphabet. and reminds me that I shouldn't try so hard to forget. live the life that you get. she gives me everything that I thought I could never have. the only light that even tries to shine during the day. I wish I was more than just a shadow that she casts. she turns the sandpits into grass and becomes a little plant. everybody wants to keep a little part of her. everybody wants to be a little part of her. live the life that you get.
5.
angel static 05:22
I find myself afraid more often than not of every little thing, of every living thing. you are sunlight in human form, angel static, smile porn. "cure" is just a pretty way of saying "death", don't fuck with it. you choose your favourite colours and fill me in, we cannot be friends, we cannot be friends. I want to hurt you for fun, because it seems like you'd like it. I wish you'd open my throat, at least it'd feel fucking honest. What do you not understand? Am I that temperamental? It's just I love when you breathe, because it's so sentimental. I am so warmed by your winter touch. in you I trust, for god I lust. Even if you are just a voice inside my head. or a broken cigarette, or the words that I forget. I want to be the breath that you exhale from your lungs, just for fun, just this once. Maybe when I'm dead you'll find some depth in what I've said, and make me live again as a friend you never had.
6.
the easy way 04:47
I saw the black sunset burn my own tv dog died in it's sleep everything's subconscious only constantly listen as I speak they let us today they let us to play missed the winter season closed my eyes instead waited for the end when I woke up breathing soft september air almost couldn't bare man, I wish that I could just hold onto the only single fucking thing that makes me feel good I've been saving up some money, pharmaceutical love you watched me barely make it to the fucking door it's a happy day
7.
part two 02:24
everyone I know is dead is or dying I guess that makes all of us, don't get too excited I was walking you home but I was invited left you in a k-hole and became the only pilot I watched a conversation turn into confrontation they were all laughing 'cause it was animation I called you when I thought I was out of hallucination I didn't know that all you were was just a fabrication I haven't been around in a week or two but I know who I am so who are you?
8.
us 05:03
anybody you can save even for just one night as long as everyone's okay, everything will be alright I just wanna keep you safe, I just wanna see you smile I really want you to stay, even for a little while I'm slipping through the cracks of your hands appearing as a tear in your eye please don't try to hide again you're always so hard to find you ask me what our purpose is it's always so hard to lie but you will know it's us when we come into town they're gonna know it's us I'll take you to the fair I'll win you something good like I should like I said I would might drink too much they're gonna it's us when we come into town they're gonna it's us
9.
there's tragedies everywhere it just depends on what circles you run in I found you dead and you looked comfy they always said punk rock makes her horny I'm sleepy I know it's hard to cheer for me when I lose consistently a table for one is at least a table I like to stare outside while I peel the label move things around in this house I wanna know where I'll die I caught a little mouse corner of my eye I'm sleeping
10.
discomfort 04:11
your body sells but you don't you little sneaky pill you throw up what you spill you turned off the lights so we couldn't see you you are so see through I can hardly bare
11.
dead on the bus trying to sleep it goes where it wants it does what it please it don't mean a thing 'cause I won't be here living this life for too many years so I walk through the door with my head in my hands my heart on the floor I smile again as I celebrate this beautiful day moon in my eyes sun in my veins look through the mirror I see it clear all of the things normal and weird all falls apart together again right from the start until the end swallowing pistols everything's gone lay down the bottle I become god in transformation red turns to blue we are transcending flowers in bloom beautiful day
12.

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this album was recorded entirely by myself on my phone between may and december

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released December 24, 2016

All songs written and performed by myself.

Album art: Daniel Høndermann

James Reid on the bong in track 12.

Tossin' Socks: tossinsocks.bandcamp.com

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Cody Smith Ottawa, Ontario

C. A. Smith is a songwriter and musician based in Ottawa, raised in the Lanark County countryside.

Known for his combination of melodic music and poignant lyrics.

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